It’s been a while since my last post and I have spent most of the summer beating myself up because of it.
Why could I find nothing to write about?
Particularly when there was so much going on in the world that I cared so desperately about, and had both opinions and fears about why these things were happening. A change of local government, Brexit, new Prime Ministers and the Labour Party in disarry all left me floundering and longing to speak and yet again and again words left me.
But everytime I turned the computer on I had no idea what to write and how to give it any sort of a positive spin and so, eventually I gave up, wondering if in fact it would be the end of the blog.
And then it hit me. I realised that all the negative stuff was just making me feel like my voice was unheard, and I understood suddenly the power of having a voice and feeling that that voice was heard, understood and mattered.
But more powerfully than that it made me realise what it was like to feel you have no voice, no power. To feel that you can’t change your life. That the people who could help you aren’t interested in listening to your issues about housing, schools, access to healthy food…..the list is endless.
But more importantly, it made me realise that I am lucky to have a voice. To be asked and able to talk to groups both in Bristol and further afield about the work of Incredible Edible, about horticulture, plants, growing and food is an extraordinary priviledge and one I never take lightly. But also to have a readership on this blog, and others that I write for, that creates discussion and debate and means I am able to be a part of a global community of food activists, growers, horticulturists and horticuluralists, writers, and more who are prepared to listen and get involved with this world wide conversation.
And that made me think about this blog. What were it’s aims and how could I move it forwards, linking together all the aspects of my life and experience and share those with others? I haven’t made any major decisions on that just yet, but I do know that I am going to try to post more regularly and I hope share more of my experiences, both good and bad, and even those in the middle!
So watch this space and if you don’t see anything feel free to give me a fairly gentle nudge!
Well done for starting up again! I feel that sometimes when the world seems so depressing I need to focus on much more local, fundamental things like gardening, friends and family. Sometimes when we can see how we've made a difference to the world we can feel more in control
ReplyDeleteThanks Luise-that resonates with me hugely. x
DeleteSometimes a break is needed to help refocus & allow you to let your brain recoup a bit! Glad to see you have come back to it & wish you well with your futures posts :)
ReplyDeleteThank you!!
DeleteBack, baby! Yeah!!! ;oP x
ReplyDeleteIt's lovely to have you back and to find your voice. I was writing about my son and ASD but I found it made me feel down and that's when I stopped and came back writing about things that make me happy. Look forward to reading more soon xx
ReplyDeleteThank you!! It is important to feel you're writing about things that make you feel positive I think. That way, when you really feel you need to say something else, a bit heavier, it's not quite as difficult.
DeleteI'm listening Sara. I sometimes think what I've got to say doesn't matter. But I think if it changes just one person's view, then it will have been worth spreading the message. Good luck with your blog. I will always be here listening and supporting you. And caring about what you stand for.
ReplyDeleteOh Karen thank you so much-that means a whole lot and I am very thankful for your ongoing support. Much love to you xxx
ReplyDeleteRight there with you. I love your writing and your ethos so I'm glad you are going to get back in the word saddle. Might join you, as I too have wobbled this summer and neglected my blog.
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